What if your Blessings come through Raindrops...

Not feeling so great :(

My body is sooo not use to all of this walking and hot weather. Back at the hotel, laying in bed watching Cinderella with Hannah. Heading back home tomorrow. It’s been a short trip, but no matter the length I am so happy to finally have been able to go to Disney World!

Anonymous asked: This is anon love spam. You are wonderful. You are amazing. You inspire me.

I love anon love spam. I love you. You are wonderful. You are amazing! Thank you so much! Can I know who you are? :)

Anonymous asked: You are going to be amazing at whatever you do with your life.

Thank you, so much! I really hope so!

Anonymous asked: I don't know you or follow you but I really hope you beat this cancer and continue on and have a happy and fulfilling life. Though not as badly as you, I've lived with a number of medical conditions and have suffered from poor body image (again not as badly as you). So I feel I can relate at least a bit. I wish you all the best in your life. :)

Well, feel free to follow and don’t be a stranger. Body image issues and  medical issues are hard, you’ve got to have an amazing support system to get through it!!

Anonymous asked: You are so beautiful and kind and strong. I really admire you. <3

Omg thank you! You are beautiful too!!

Anonymous asked: You are an amazing person.

Thank you!! So are you! :)

Anonymous asked: When you're at Disney World, you won't be lining up to get photos with the characters - they'll all be lining to get photos with YOU.

<3 <3 That is so sweet. Hasn’t happened.. yet! But, I was wearing my Leukemia awareness shirt and Cinderella gave me a hug and whispered a special little message to me :) And then she signed it!

Anonymous asked: I really enjoy your blog. It's quite wonderful :)

Thank you!!

Anonymous asked: You are such an amazing and inspiring person! I hope you manage to do everything you want to do with life. You deserve to live the life you dream of <3

Thank you so much! I have a lot of goals and dreams, I’m ready to go out and achieve them!

I’m crying.

Because I just logged onto tumblr and had 8 messages. Of anon love.

Seriously, who ever sent these.. I love you. I’m going to reply.

It just.. it made my morning to wake up to this. Last night, Hannah and I were sitting by the pool. It made me think of diving. Which, got me really sad. I loved diving. I still do. I love the feeling of flying for those few seconds. But, I haven’t been able to do it for so long. With treatments, and hospital stays, to a bone marrow transplant.. my dreams and days of diving have been put on hold. I hate cancer. I think that is an obvious statement. But, hear me out. Cancer put my life on hold, it put my family’s life on hold. I know, this is true for everyone who battles it. I hate myself and the cancer for the stress it put my family through. I met so many great friends in the hospital, we had a special bond, because we were each battling the same villain. I hate that I’ve lost so many of those friends to cancer. How is it fair? Why did they lose their battle and I lived? I lived, I survived, I am suriving.. I should be grateful. I should feel blessed. And, I do. But, it bothers me.

I’m not looking for sympathy. I’m just venting. Because I’m upset. I’m upset at the happiest place on earth.. is that even allowed?

So, anons.. Thank you. Thank you for making me smile this morning. Whoever you are. Thank you.